Footprints...

[Not every mountain contains jewels, not every elephant has pearls। Saintly people are not ubiquitous, nor there is sandaalvood in every forest]

20th Jan., 2010
Vasant Panchami.

This is one of the most auspicious days of the year probably with the number of events falling on it.. Signifies the onset of spring. It holds a special significance, since, on this day Bhagwan Swaminarayan presented the 'Shikshapatri' in its final form. It is also the birthday of Brahmanand Swami, Nishkulanand Swami and Brahmaswarup Shastriji Maharaj (founder of the BAPS). And also date wise, it's the date when Mulji Sharma initiated into sadhu-fold. Named Gunatitanand Swami, exactly before 200 years.

But even on this auspicious day, i know, my condition is worse. May be today or tomorrow is my last day at office.. Now the biggest problem is, what next?? What for next four-five months... At least, what in February and March??.. Coz the loneliness only makes oneself weaker..And m not only a loner but also a struggler, a dreamer, a fallen and what not... this is the time when one's inner strength is measured.. I hope at least Maharaj and Swami are on my side.. (And They make me feel that...)

And "probably" i m not writing this blog post for anyone.. i m writing it for myself.. so that after 5 years or so, i can understand whatever i have then, how i have achieved it.

Jai Swaminarayan..

A new morning after results.. As i begin to get into normalcy of routine, the pain starts increasing.. Today got up to an call from one of the office's senior CA members asking abt me.. And instantly i realised how my next few days or probably weeks or months are going to be..

Yaar.. When u fail, the next thing which comes to your mind is next attempt... and immediately, ur mind asks u, what if same thing happens then also? And it's unbearable.. Why me?..

Wow. for the first time m writing a blog from office... feel awkard to use office comp for blog... actually these days, office has become boring lyk nvr befor.. with most of the frnds leaving it.. today, there are no old pals like urvi, jaimin, sanjay here at office.. all are either on leave, have left or on audit... : :(

Okey... so wat shall i type here to roll my tym till 5.30?? hmm... lemme describe the office enviro.. it's pal.. lyk full of morrons.. who 've nthng to do in lyf but just to live.. and i m helplessly trying to pass remaining 2 odd weeks of my articleship anyhow with them here.. it's an awkward situation.. facing the pre-result blues and at the same tym missing the fun and support of frnds..:( but, it's lyf after all... even the nearby Uttarayan seems to have lost it’s charm..

Even after-office hours are not so exciting these days.. going home around 6 in the evening and then realising that there are still 6 hours to pass before sleeping.. oh no... and condition during the weekends is even worse.. today, the last thing on To Do list is to go for my eye check... may be i'll be writing my other posts after this in glasses..:)

Planning to buy a new phone... most probably the Samsung Omnia Pro.. the one with QWERTY key pad.. may be till next weekend.. so may be I write next post with glasses on and with my phone..:) sounds cool isn’t it..:) saw Avatar and 3 Idiots last week.. both are good with their own genres.. the later being bit extra melodramatic... nywys.. will have to sign off for now.. got some work to do.. bye frnds.. tc..

Jai Swaminarayan

ઘણા સમય પછી તમારું આગમન થયું છે મારા મનગમતાં મહેમાનનું મધુરું મિલન થયું છે.. :)
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13th August, 2009 1:30 PM

Friends!! Time has stopped for me today...
I have received my CA Final result. I passed in First Group of Papers but Second Group was a horror.. I just dont think, but i know that i deserved more than this... And from last few hours since i got my result, i m constantly weeping from my heart... not bcoz i failed but i failed when i gave my 100%...

Nyways, I've lost the battle but not d fight. I'll come back and that's for sure. So for next 3 months, its me, my God and the Institute.. And till then, no orkut, no chat and no calls... For me, it's a question of proving my worth to my own self..

I know all u r always there with me.. Just pray for me..

Bye...
Jai Swaminarayan

In 1990, the climax of Swamishri's four month stay in UK were the celebrations of the Diwali and Annakut Festival in London.After the festivities, Swamishri sat down for his lunch in the kitchen. The youths had decorated the kitchen with lighted candles and lamps ('divas'). As Swamishri was eating, one of the youths sang a prayer in Gujarati and said, "Swamishri we have lit this room with candles and lamps. Now please help us to illuminate our hearts with your light."Swamishri was pleased with the youth's prayer and said, "The flame of knowledge (gnan) is already lit within your heart. Now you have to ensure it doesn't blow out.""But how do we know whether the flame is still glowing?" asked one of the youths.Swamishri stopped eating and explained, "The flame of knowledge is said to be glowing if you can remain steady in Satsang through times of tears and laughter, honour and insult. If we keep this flame aglow at all times we will experience the bliss of God."Swamishri is an illuminated personality because the flame of knowledge is constantly glowing within his heart. He is in constant communion with God.